Update

Noticed that I hadn't blogged since January so figured it was only right to fill you in...

1. Still working at the sales job, but have managed to become the top volume rep. I worked hard to get there, but now that I'm there, I can only thank God for rewarding my determination. Also recently negotiated a 4-day work week with my program director which means more time to do me!

2. I'm somewhat aggressively dating now. Got a few (more than I've ever had before) women that I'm currently "talking to". I'm learning more and more about what I like/dislike in a woman. At times, phone ringing and text message notifications can get overwhelming, but I'm getting better everyday at managing the "team".

3. Finally moving out to a new place at the beginning of next month (pics will follow). I'm both excited and nervous because this will be the 1st time in my life that I will live all by myself. I plan on sleeping nekkid for at least the 1st 3 months.

4. Got back in touch with the ex and we are trying this whole "friends" thing. She's since got a new man that she's been dating for about 6 months, but dude is overseas for a year right now so I kinda feel like she uses me to be her "boyfriend" but not sometimes. Honestly, I still have feelings for her and I see myself having to step back from her sometime in the future because I find myself neglecting my "team" because I'm chillin with her and she already got her somebody. Don't wanna find myself hella single when her dude comes back because I gave her all my time. To be continued on that one...

5. Got accepted into law school and was going to go, but my loan fell through. Was EXTREMELY frustrated for a lil bit, but everything happens for a reason so I know God has something better planned for me. Letting go and letting God....

I'm sure there's more, but I can't think of it all right now...what I can say is that in the first 7 months of this 2010, I have been extremely blessed and have I seen my life grow and improve in all the ways that I prayed for and more. I'm excited to see how the rest of this year will go...

Boyfriend Material

Went out on a "date" last night. One thing I realized (I knew this before I went on the date, but this confirmed it) I am in no way at this point in my life boyfriend material. I mean from the outside looking in I may be, young, single, handsome, ambitious (got a job), but I don't feel like having a girlfriend AT ALL at this point. I'm at a very selfish point in my life. I don't feel like asking a woman all about herself, when I don't really care. I don't feel like pretending to be interested in what another person thinks. I don't feel like going to someplace or doing something that I don't really feel like doing to make someone else feel better. I don't feel like trying to impress anyone. I really just feel like doing what I want to do when I want to do it, and am currently very ok with operating that way right now. As for the date:

We went to the movies (to see Precious, which I wanted to see). I bought the tickets and the food at the concession stand (note: I paused after the cashier told me how much the food was to see if she would offer to pay for it. She didn't). She also kept trying to talk to me throughout the movie (which irritates the sh*t outta me). This girl has a habit of talking about herself waaaay too much. Everything can be turned into a story about herself. Granted, I'm not known to be the most forthright with personal information about myself, but at least if I'm going to listen to someone else talk all evening, I would hope that the person is engaging or entertaining on some level. You know one of those people who have the ability to draw you into their story? She's not one of them. After the movie, we went to the gas station where she said, "Pay or pump?" At that moment I realized how much I didn't want to be there. Now being a gentleman, I pumped the gas, but I really didn't want to.

Now understand, my momma raised me right. I know how to be a gentleman and most women who have met me would describe me as such. I just realized last night, how much I secretly enjoyed not having to worry about things like being thoughtful.


Now that I think about it, it may just be that I don't like the girl that I went on a "date" with that much. Because I don't. I'm gonna have to tell her that too before this gets outta hand.