Update

Noticed that I hadn't blogged since January so figured it was only right to fill you in...

1. Still working at the sales job, but have managed to become the top volume rep. I worked hard to get there, but now that I'm there, I can only thank God for rewarding my determination. Also recently negotiated a 4-day work week with my program director which means more time to do me!

2. I'm somewhat aggressively dating now. Got a few (more than I've ever had before) women that I'm currently "talking to". I'm learning more and more about what I like/dislike in a woman. At times, phone ringing and text message notifications can get overwhelming, but I'm getting better everyday at managing the "team".

3. Finally moving out to a new place at the beginning of next month (pics will follow). I'm both excited and nervous because this will be the 1st time in my life that I will live all by myself. I plan on sleeping nekkid for at least the 1st 3 months.

4. Got back in touch with the ex and we are trying this whole "friends" thing. She's since got a new man that she's been dating for about 6 months, but dude is overseas for a year right now so I kinda feel like she uses me to be her "boyfriend" but not sometimes. Honestly, I still have feelings for her and I see myself having to step back from her sometime in the future because I find myself neglecting my "team" because I'm chillin with her and she already got her somebody. Don't wanna find myself hella single when her dude comes back because I gave her all my time. To be continued on that one...

5. Got accepted into law school and was going to go, but my loan fell through. Was EXTREMELY frustrated for a lil bit, but everything happens for a reason so I know God has something better planned for me. Letting go and letting God....

I'm sure there's more, but I can't think of it all right now...what I can say is that in the first 7 months of this 2010, I have been extremely blessed and have I seen my life grow and improve in all the ways that I prayed for and more. I'm excited to see how the rest of this year will go...

Purpose and Duty

I keep thinking about this law school thing. I really need to get on my recommendations and personal statement, but for some reason I keep procrastinating. I don't know if it's laziness, fear, I'm handling other business, but I really feel like I need to place it at the top of my priority list. You know how when you know the right thing to do, but for some reason you avoid doing it, and it always lingers with you, and you go through periods where your mind can quarantine that idea, but sometimes the idea gets loose in your head an infects all of your thinking for that time? If not, just rock wit me here. That's how I feel about law school. I feel like God is giving me signs that I need to get more proactive about it. I just happened to read an op-ed in the Sunday paper, where someone makes the argument that affirmative action has been all but destroyed by the recent Supreme Court decision regarding the white Hartford, CT firefighters who sued the city over what they called "reverse-discrimination". I won't go into details regarding the whole article, but in it, the author notes that Blacks and Hispanics make up only between 4 and 6 percent of all the lawyers in the US. I did a little research on his statistic, and according the most recent census survey on the matter (in 2004), blacks make up only 4.4% (58,000) of US lawyers. To add more insult to injury, I calculated what percentage that was of the African American population in the US (39.7 million) and that comes out to a whopping 0.1% of the US African American population are lawyers.

As I told you before, George Washington Carver passed up a potentially illustrious career in the arts to pursue a graduate degree out of a sense of duty he felt to his people to use the intellect he was blessed with to bless others. I feel like if I were to allow this opportunity to go by, I would be letting down far too many people. I would be letting myself down. It would be a shame for me not to make use of my God-given gifts.

The decision has already been made, I will be enrolling somewhere in Fall 2010...I'm just...well...blogging about the journey is all...






Sidenote - I just turned my head to the tv and saw an outrageously gay dance team on America's Best Dance Crew. And one of those dudes looks like a chick...Am I really seeing this?

Introduction

I've decided to make this my only real outlet on the internet for whatever I feel like I want to blog about at the time...I've shut down myspace, facebook, twitter, linkedin, etc...I think it's time for me to spend some serious time working on self (and bringing whomever reads these along with me) and my social networking persona was getting a little shall we say "out of hand". Social networking sites allow people to be whomever they want to be and to create their own virtual world that can, if abused, be confused for reality. Now to let me start off (again) on the right note, a little about me:

Born in Ohio, spent a little time in Indiana, then spent most of my formative years in sunny Southern California. So if you ask, I'm from Cali. Currently living in Atlanta. College graduate that has gone on to become one of the many people in Atlanta who say "I'm in the music industry" when asked the question, "What do you do?" This also, as many in Atlanta would logically presume, means my financial situation isn't in the best shape, thus creating a daily psychological war between the logical self which asks, "What if it doesn't pan out?", and my "dreamer self" which is asks, "What if it does?" (My plan B is law school and I'm giving myself until Fall 2010 for this music thing to work or it's back to the classroom.)

I'd like to think I'm somewhat good looking, a lil' bit charming, and might I even say I have a sense of humor when I want have one. I have the ability to be extremely likeable (again, when I want to be). In general temperament, I will admit that I can sometimes be two VERY different people (which I will also admit is usually due to me not being very sensitive to my own emotions). As far as faults, I have a tendency to not let the people that I care about know just how much I care about them, something I am working on. Also, my biggest fault is I have been known to lie to people I care about. There I said it. I have been less than truthful to everyone that I have found truly important in my life and absolutely brutally honest to those that I don't. And on top of that, I'm not a very good liar, so I always get put on blast sooner or later. I can't really explain why I do it, although much of it is to avoid accountability, but my mom says I have inherited it from pops and it's something he took with him to his grave. I am extremely fearful of meeting the same fate. I'm trying to take it one day at a time, but honestly, it's rough...

Well that's me. Now you know more about me than a lot of people I know. I don't like to talk about myself that much. Introspection can be painful sometimes. Consider yourself properly introduced :)