Looking Skyward

I think the word that best describes my mood lately is hopeful. Not that I'm one to ever lose hope, but I feel like the hope that I've always carried with me is seeping deeper into my very spirit. I feel like the hard work is really about to pay off (knock on wood). We've got a few deals on the table that, God willing, will be done by the end of the month. Nobody but you (and maybe your significant other)can truly understand the sacrifices you make to be successful. Now is where the real test of will begins. To make a sports reference, it's a very different mentality between a player who is at the end of the bench and the player that is sitting next to the coach waiting to get in the game. I definitely feel like I'm waiting on coach to put me in the game, waiting anxiously with my legs bouncing up and down in anticipation. I know I'm ready. I put in the extra time. I've done my homework. All I'm waiting on is my shot. It's coming. I can feel it in the air!

Here's my current playlist:

The Winner - Drake

All The Above feat. T-Pain - Maino

My Time feat. Jeremih - Fabolous

Death

This recent spree of celebrity deaths (MJ, Farrah Fawcett, Billy Mays, Steve McNair) has really got me thinking about how fragile life is. I think about what I have done with my life to this point and how many, if any, lives I have touched with my time here. I wonder what people would say about me if I were to not wake up one day (knock on wood). I cannot without a doubt say that most people would have great things to say and that troubles me. I have always felt there is something really great I am supposed to do on this Earth before I go, but I pray I figure that out before it is too late. I pray that everyone I call a friend would call me the same, and that I become better at truly showing gratitude to those who saw the potential for greatness within me and helped me without asking for reciprocation. I pray one day that potential that those people have recognized becomes realized. I pray to one day become a blessing to this world and not someone who merely "exists". Amen.