Found this online today...I don't really do this horoscope stuff...but this is deep...
Year 2010 Overview
Whew! Feel that enormous burden sliding off of your shoulders, like you've been carrying around an overstuffed backpack for the last couple of years? That would be Saturn, planet of structures and limitation, moving out of your sign. Congratulations, first of all, on having simply made it through more or less in one piece. You passed through the fire and made it out the other side.
Now, what to do with that spiritual Medal of Honor you've earned? Well, for one thing, establish who it is you really are with both yourself and those around you. Your ability to quietly endure both the big and little outrages of life have served you well in the last couple of years, and many of those around you may have come to assume that either it wasn't as rough on you as it was, or that you are somehow made of steel. In fact, you may have come to the same conclusion yourself. Virgo has a reputation for being able to take care of others with the best of them -- but can you turn that same care and attention on yourself? That's the big question you'll be facing in 2010.
The good news (beyond simply less bad news) is that there will be all kinds of opportunities opening up for you in new directions as far as fun, recreation and romance. So take advantage of those whenever you can. You've earned it!
....crazy right?
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
WHO are u?
One of my homies is...to say it frankly, a manipulative, conniving jerkoff. The only thing is, everyone, myself included thinks he's a really good guy. Deep down. Somewhere. It's like he's two different people. He's capable of doing some of the nicest sh*t ever, and would truly kill a man for one of us, but he's also capable of doin some of the most disrespectful sh*t to us, and other people he cares about. Therein lies the conundrum. We had a somewhat "intervention" with him the other day where everyone got the opportunity to air out their grievances, and it occurred to me just after the conversation, that it wasn't the first time we had this kind of conversation with him, and it's not seeming like he's really doing anything to change. Do I think he's a good guy? Yes. But when I think about what he does, not only to us, but other people that he cares about, it makes you wonder which person is the real him?
This is opening my eyes, because I was (and honestly sometimes still am) like that. When I took a step back and examined my actions, it seemed like I was nicer to those that I didn't know than those that I did. I've heard that family are the ones that can hurt you the most, I'm assuming because they know the most about you and you allow yourself to become emotionally vulnerable around them. I know there were some cases where I definitely took advantage of that, and I'm not proud of it. It wasn't until I was put in a situation that I was forced to deal with the consequences of my actions toward those I "cared" about, that I truly made an effort to change.
I hope that he doesn't place himself in a situation where he has to learn the lesson the hard way like I did, but he is a bit older than me and they say it is hard to teach an old dog new tricks. I love him to death and look at him almost like a big brother to me, but I can feel myself beginning to feed him with a long-handed spoon and I don't like the guard I find myself putting up when he comes around or we talk. I almost want to sit him down and ask once and for all...homie...WHO ARE U?!
This is opening my eyes, because I was (and honestly sometimes still am) like that. When I took a step back and examined my actions, it seemed like I was nicer to those that I didn't know than those that I did. I've heard that family are the ones that can hurt you the most, I'm assuming because they know the most about you and you allow yourself to become emotionally vulnerable around them. I know there were some cases where I definitely took advantage of that, and I'm not proud of it. It wasn't until I was put in a situation that I was forced to deal with the consequences of my actions toward those I "cared" about, that I truly made an effort to change.
I hope that he doesn't place himself in a situation where he has to learn the lesson the hard way like I did, but he is a bit older than me and they say it is hard to teach an old dog new tricks. I love him to death and look at him almost like a big brother to me, but I can feel myself beginning to feed him with a long-handed spoon and I don't like the guard I find myself putting up when he comes around or we talk. I almost want to sit him down and ask once and for all...homie...WHO ARE U?!
Saturday, December 26, 2009
New Music
This song isn't really new, but I had been waitin on this to get posted on youtube so I could share it...this song is just sexy as hell...nuthin like a pretty lady that can sing...
Christmas
Yesterday I did absolutely NOTHING. No christmas dinner with family. No visit to the homie's house. NOTHING. There were things I could have done, but I didn't really feel like it. I kinda felt like, since I had been working everyday, I felt like having a day when I could do absolutely nothing and it seems that christmas was my day to do that. It was kinda pathetic now that I think about it. On Christmas eve, I went to the strip club on a solo mission. It wasn't because I wanted to see some scattered a$$ or make it rain, but just because it was the only place near the crib that was open. Really I just played pool and had a couple drinks, and funny enough, my obvious "I could care less that your a$$ is hangin out right next to me, tell the waitress to bring me my drank" attitude made the strippers pay even more attention to me, even got a couple free dances. Got up the next day, took my pillow and covers to the living room couch, and sat my lazy a$$ there all day. Watched my Lakers get demolished by the Cavs, which got my phone ringin with negroes talkin sh*t. Watched "He's Just Not That Into You", which was a good movie by the way, and had some moscato and fatty food. After spending most of the day watching tv and texting, I decided to get my a$$ up out of the house so I went to go see "Avatar". In short, I would never see that movie again. Visually stunning, but the d@mn movie was almost 3 hours and it's EXTREMELY hard for a movie to keep my attention for that long (last one to do that was "Dark Knight"). All in all, Christmas was pretty laid back. Honestly, only thing that could've made it better was a pretty girl with a phat booty and good conversation (harder combo to match than one would think) to sit around and be lazy with me...But hey, can't have everything! Hope everyone had a Merry Christmas, and hope you have a Happy New Year!
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Keep it 1000
A couple of the homies from work were havin a conversation about dating etiquette and the homie said if a chick eats more than him at any time during initial courtship, she's automatically off the list. Most of us immediately called him an uppity negro, who can't handle a woman who keeps it 1000, but then I took a second to think about it....
I took this one chick to the movies and when we passed by the concession stand, in true gentlemanly fashion, I asked her if she would like anything. She proceeded to make a beeline for the register ordering a large popcorn and a drink. THEN she asked if I wanted anything and I just ordered some milk duds (I think). Anyways, while we were in the movie, I remembered watchin her out of the side of my eye eating that big a$$ popcorn and washin it down wit that big a$$ drink. Granted, I already have a not so mild irritation about me hearing the sound of people chew and drink (for some reason it's like nails on a chalkboard for me), but it was made worse when I looked at my little box of candy next to her bucket of d@mn popcorn. Then, this vacuum asked me for some of my candy. Needless to say, her a$$ was crossed off as soon as I got in the car to go home.
Now, I would assume that this double standard would remedy itself the more a man falls in love with a woman, but even then, I don't think I could handle my chick eating more than me consistently, unless of course she was some bodybuilding chick, in which case we wouldn't even be dating in the first place...
Random I know...but build a bridge ni@@a...u already read it :)
I took this one chick to the movies and when we passed by the concession stand, in true gentlemanly fashion, I asked her if she would like anything. She proceeded to make a beeline for the register ordering a large popcorn and a drink. THEN she asked if I wanted anything and I just ordered some milk duds (I think). Anyways, while we were in the movie, I remembered watchin her out of the side of my eye eating that big a$$ popcorn and washin it down wit that big a$$ drink. Granted, I already have a not so mild irritation about me hearing the sound of people chew and drink (for some reason it's like nails on a chalkboard for me), but it was made worse when I looked at my little box of candy next to her bucket of d@mn popcorn. Then, this vacuum asked me for some of my candy. Needless to say, her a$$ was crossed off as soon as I got in the car to go home.
Now, I would assume that this double standard would remedy itself the more a man falls in love with a woman, but even then, I don't think I could handle my chick eating more than me consistently, unless of course she was some bodybuilding chick, in which case we wouldn't even be dating in the first place...
Random I know...but build a bridge ni@@a...u already read it :)
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Lightweight
I don't really drink...but I had a few rounds tonight...Lost $100 on the Saints and Cowboy's game...then spent more money than I wanted at the club tonight...I don't even really like the club....I juz wanted the homies to have a good time....I'm goin to bed...I got work tomorrow....
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Life Is Precious
I didn't talk about this a couple days ago, but the tragic death of Bengals WR Chris Henry moved me to blog...
Earlier this week, I met an elderly white lady at work. I made the sale, and during the course of our small talk, she revealed to me that she had a terminal illness. She had tumors in BOTH lungs and had cancer in her liver. My first response was to say I'm sorry to hear that, but she quickly told me not to feel sorry because everything happens for a reason. I told her that I feel the same way, but I wouldn't know how to react if the doctor told me something as disheartening as that. She said she was hurt at first, but her faith is what got her through the initial shock. She even said she had went on to get married (this lady couldn't have been less than 55 btw) recently to a man she met online. She then went on to tell me how she was on her way to visit family in Florida for the holidays and how excited she was. I never had met anyone who really knew that they were going to die soon, so I asked her if knowing that her life wouldn't be much longer made everyday more special and she said yes. She said that everyday is a blessing and healthy young people like me should feel the same way. We had a few more words before she got on the plane...
What stuck with me was first and foremost her positivity. She literally was looking death in the face and didn't allow it to defeat her. I admired her courage. I wondered how I could/would operate in the same situation and I have no idea. That is one of those scenarios that you couldn't really imagine it until you're in it.
The sudden death of Chris Henry struck a chord with me because we were both the same age. He, like I, had made some mistakes in his life but was doing the best he could to become a better man for it. The only difference is that his journey has been cut short before he could actualize the person that he knew he could be.
I thank God that he has given me the opportunity to learn from my mistakes, and I hope that he sees fit to grant me the opportunity to be that person that I see in my mind's eye. As I mature, I am learning to appreciate the journey as much as the destination. I thank God for that as well...
"This is the beginning of a new day. You have been given this day to use as you will. You can waste it or use it for good. What you do today is important because you are exchanging a day of your life for it. When tomorrow comes, this day will be gone forever; in its place is something that you have left behind...let it be something good."
- Author Unknown
Earlier this week, I met an elderly white lady at work. I made the sale, and during the course of our small talk, she revealed to me that she had a terminal illness. She had tumors in BOTH lungs and had cancer in her liver. My first response was to say I'm sorry to hear that, but she quickly told me not to feel sorry because everything happens for a reason. I told her that I feel the same way, but I wouldn't know how to react if the doctor told me something as disheartening as that. She said she was hurt at first, but her faith is what got her through the initial shock. She even said she had went on to get married (this lady couldn't have been less than 55 btw) recently to a man she met online. She then went on to tell me how she was on her way to visit family in Florida for the holidays and how excited she was. I never had met anyone who really knew that they were going to die soon, so I asked her if knowing that her life wouldn't be much longer made everyday more special and she said yes. She said that everyday is a blessing and healthy young people like me should feel the same way. We had a few more words before she got on the plane...
What stuck with me was first and foremost her positivity. She literally was looking death in the face and didn't allow it to defeat her. I admired her courage. I wondered how I could/would operate in the same situation and I have no idea. That is one of those scenarios that you couldn't really imagine it until you're in it.
The sudden death of Chris Henry struck a chord with me because we were both the same age. He, like I, had made some mistakes in his life but was doing the best he could to become a better man for it. The only difference is that his journey has been cut short before he could actualize the person that he knew he could be.
I thank God that he has given me the opportunity to learn from my mistakes, and I hope that he sees fit to grant me the opportunity to be that person that I see in my mind's eye. As I mature, I am learning to appreciate the journey as much as the destination. I thank God for that as well...
"This is the beginning of a new day. You have been given this day to use as you will. You can waste it or use it for good. What you do today is important because you are exchanging a day of your life for it. When tomorrow comes, this day will be gone forever; in its place is something that you have left behind...let it be something good."
- Author Unknown
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
We Got Next!
Shout out to the homie Kollosus on Block Ent! Got a record out wit Gucci Mane called Settin Standards. Also check out my lil homie Milla who got a cameo! 2010 is gon be some PROBLEMS!
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Washington Post Lady
- My sister sent me the article by that DC chick about being a lonely young successful black woman. I'm done having that discussion altogether. The only ones seemingly even caring about the topic in general are single women and single negroes. My solution is how about you fools arguing about it try dating each other and see if that works out? Or maybe you guys are single because you spend so much time arguing about sh*t and not making it happen.
Me personally, I've never had a problem getting a girlfriend. When I wanted one, I got one. Simple as that. Even now, if I wanted to have a girlfriend, I know a few women who have definitely put their bid in. Not saying this to brag, but I've just never understood, how someone can't find a significant other. Even for most of the young successful black women I know, it seems to me that they don't have a man because they choose not to have one. It seems, again in my opinion, that if a woman is attractive, or even somewhat attractive, you can go find a man if you really want one.
Now I'm not saying that soulmates fall off of trees, because I know they don't. But I do believe that if you are a young, successful, good looking black woman and you can't find a boo to cuddle with through the winter, the problem might just be you sweetheart.
Simple as that, for yo simple a$$...
Me personally, I've never had a problem getting a girlfriend. When I wanted one, I got one. Simple as that. Even now, if I wanted to have a girlfriend, I know a few women who have definitely put their bid in. Not saying this to brag, but I've just never understood, how someone can't find a significant other. Even for most of the young successful black women I know, it seems to me that they don't have a man because they choose not to have one. It seems, again in my opinion, that if a woman is attractive, or even somewhat attractive, you can go find a man if you really want one.
Now I'm not saying that soulmates fall off of trees, because I know they don't. But I do believe that if you are a young, successful, good looking black woman and you can't find a boo to cuddle with through the winter, the problem might just be you sweetheart.
Simple as that, for yo simple a$$...
Monday, December 14, 2009
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Game is 2 Be Sold....
I was having a conversation with one of my co-workers after work over a short dinner about her "man, but not her man". She was a little upset about him not returning a phone call she made to him today and it was painfully obvious. She recently moved to Atlanta and is living in a hotel so I knew she didn't have anyone else she could literally look at and talk to so I offered her dinner and conversation...
We immediately got to talkin about aforementioned dude and she said it wasn't just the phone call thing, but it was other little things that led up to today that made her feel some kinda way. We had about a good hour or so of conversation, with me doin my best not to throw salt in dude's game, but at the same time, keep it 1000 with her (even harder than it sounds).
To sum it up, I told her that a woman's intuition is a muthaf@#ka. Most of the time, in my experience, that sh*t is right. And this isn't just because how women act towards me, but from situations I've seen wit the homies and their women as well. Their women will get a "feeling" and we go back in the homie huddle like "how the f#@k does this chick know that?!"
The part where the fellas get over and chicks f#@k up is when they ignore that feeling and turn themselves into their own worst enemy. When they tell themselves, "maybe I'm just crazy" or "I don't want to stress him" that is exactly the point that you my lady...dun F#@KED up. The OG homies passed it down to us with the sayin "go with your gut". It seems women didn't get that memo...
I also told her that next time, I'm chargin her a$$ for the game that I'm givin her. Steve Harvey and that "He's Just Not That Into You" guy made a killin off sellin the game to females. My dumba$$ been doin it for the free free for years. Not anymore chica/s. It's a new muthaf#@kin day. And I'm chargin by the light bulb. That means whenever a client gets that look on her face like the light just came on and I added a wrinkle to they brain, put some money in the jar homeslice.
Deuces.
ps - my bad on the cussin...I juz felt like gettin my Chris Rock blog on...muthaf#@kas
We immediately got to talkin about aforementioned dude and she said it wasn't just the phone call thing, but it was other little things that led up to today that made her feel some kinda way. We had about a good hour or so of conversation, with me doin my best not to throw salt in dude's game, but at the same time, keep it 1000 with her (even harder than it sounds).
To sum it up, I told her that a woman's intuition is a muthaf@#ka. Most of the time, in my experience, that sh*t is right. And this isn't just because how women act towards me, but from situations I've seen wit the homies and their women as well. Their women will get a "feeling" and we go back in the homie huddle like "how the f#@k does this chick know that?!"
The part where the fellas get over and chicks f#@k up is when they ignore that feeling and turn themselves into their own worst enemy. When they tell themselves, "maybe I'm just crazy" or "I don't want to stress him" that is exactly the point that you my lady...dun F#@KED up. The OG homies passed it down to us with the sayin "go with your gut". It seems women didn't get that memo...
I also told her that next time, I'm chargin her a$$ for the game that I'm givin her. Steve Harvey and that "He's Just Not That Into You" guy made a killin off sellin the game to females. My dumba$$ been doin it for the free free for years. Not anymore chica/s. It's a new muthaf#@kin day. And I'm chargin by the light bulb. That means whenever a client gets that look on her face like the light just came on and I added a wrinkle to they brain, put some money in the jar homeslice.
Deuces.
ps - my bad on the cussin...I juz felt like gettin my Chris Rock blog on...muthaf#@kas
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
PSA
It does NOT make me feel better, or make me think any higher of you, if you use something of mine and tell me AFTER you have already used it. In fact, it makes me hide my sh*t from you.
That is all...
That is all...
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
This Christmas
I'm feeling really good about how 2009 is ending. For the 1st time in a while I'll be able to get (nice) gifts for my mom and my sister and also get plenty of toys for my little brothers. On the music side, we got a few checks comin in at the end of the year so that'll be some more money for ya boy to stack up a little. The job is hard. VERY hard. But I remind myself everyday how hard I prayed just to get this job and how I felt when I didn't have a job.
Looking back (is it too early to do this?) on 2009, it really has been the most significant year of my life. I'm in a totally different place not only literally, but mentally, from where I was at the beginning of this year. It almost seems so far away. It really is like they say, "What a difference a year makes..."
I'm anxious and excited about what 2010 will be like. I know it only gets better...
Looking back (is it too early to do this?) on 2009, it really has been the most significant year of my life. I'm in a totally different place not only literally, but mentally, from where I was at the beginning of this year. It almost seems so far away. It really is like they say, "What a difference a year makes..."
I'm anxious and excited about what 2010 will be like. I know it only gets better...
Congrats
Shout out to my girl Kalenna for the whole Dirty Money project. She's come a LONG way and she deserves the success she's getting right now. Tell me this track ain't crazy...
Car Pt. 2
I can't wait until Thursday to get my car. Me and my baby will reunite! We will never be apart again! I'm gonna wash my baby inside and out...and even take her to the mechanic for a check up! I luv my baby...
Monday, December 7, 2009
Car
I'm REALLY going to have to go get my car back. I'm sick of paying $20 to everybody when I get in the car. Seems like NOBODY can give me a ride just because I need one anymore. Every time I ask somebody to take me somewhere, first thing they say is I need gas money. I be giving ni@@as the side eye like "stop countin MY money ni@@a!"
Sunday, December 6, 2009
Random Shit
- Today reminded me why I HATE goin to the dmv. I woke up around 730am to go get my license reinstated (praise jesus) and was kindly greeted by the slowest customer service EVER. They announced that they were "transitioning" to a new system and today (of all days) was the first day they would go "live". Being that I was one of the first people in line, I was one of the test tube babies for this "new system". Whatever system it was, it failed monumentally today because, 3 hours later, I still didn't have my license, and then they announced that they would return to the "old system" so they could get people processed. Once again, THAT'S why I hate the dmv.
- Went and saw that Twilight: New Moon movie. Don't know if it was just me, but I felt infinitely more lame watching this movie than I did watching the first one. It seemed that they were just a tad (sarcasm) more aggressive about tailoring the movie to prepubescent girls. Why were werewolves forced to run around shirtless with George Michael cutoff jean shorts on? And why were Edward's lines ALL cheesy romance crap like "Just you breathing is a gift" and "I can't see myself living in a world in which you don't exist"....When I left the theater I had to check my pants to make sure my manhood was still there.
- Biggie said the realest sh*t ever when he said "mo money, mo problems". I feel like I work now just to spend my check. When I was dead a$$ broke and jobless, all I worried about was working out and looking for a job telling myself, "the only bill you really have is your phone bill..." I'm a lyin sack o you know what for tellin myself that tale. Seems like everybody wants my money now. I looked at what I had gotten paid since I started and said "what the F#@K was I spending my money on?" BILLS. And moochin a$$ negroes who look for me to support their joblessness. THAT'S what.
- The homie juz got the new Blackberry Bold 2 and let me play with it for a second...I think I'm in luv...
- Someway somehow...I contracted pink eye. I had heard of it before yesterday, but for some reason I thought that was only a white people problem. God has decided to obliterate that myth by using me as the example...
- My aunt randomly called me today, saying that she had thought about me and wanted to invite me over to her house because she was going to have a get together for my cousin's bday next week. I found this weird because her and my uncle (my mom's brother) broke up a while ago. Also weird because I had always noticed my aunt randomly looking at me when I would come over for holiday dinner with her and my uncle. Ever since I came out here for college. She creeps me out...
- Got a little ego boost the other day when the wife of a VERY prominent music man came on to me in a not so subtle manner. And this isn't me bullsh*ttin because I have witnesses. What can I say? Ya boy's so handsome :)
- Went and saw that Twilight: New Moon movie. Don't know if it was just me, but I felt infinitely more lame watching this movie than I did watching the first one. It seemed that they were just a tad (sarcasm) more aggressive about tailoring the movie to prepubescent girls. Why were werewolves forced to run around shirtless with George Michael cutoff jean shorts on? And why were Edward's lines ALL cheesy romance crap like "Just you breathing is a gift" and "I can't see myself living in a world in which you don't exist"....When I left the theater I had to check my pants to make sure my manhood was still there.
- Biggie said the realest sh*t ever when he said "mo money, mo problems". I feel like I work now just to spend my check. When I was dead a$$ broke and jobless, all I worried about was working out and looking for a job telling myself, "the only bill you really have is your phone bill..." I'm a lyin sack o you know what for tellin myself that tale. Seems like everybody wants my money now. I looked at what I had gotten paid since I started and said "what the F#@K was I spending my money on?" BILLS. And moochin a$$ negroes who look for me to support their joblessness. THAT'S what.
- The homie juz got the new Blackberry Bold 2 and let me play with it for a second...I think I'm in luv...
- Someway somehow...I contracted pink eye. I had heard of it before yesterday, but for some reason I thought that was only a white people problem. God has decided to obliterate that myth by using me as the example...
- My aunt randomly called me today, saying that she had thought about me and wanted to invite me over to her house because she was going to have a get together for my cousin's bday next week. I found this weird because her and my uncle (my mom's brother) broke up a while ago. Also weird because I had always noticed my aunt randomly looking at me when I would come over for holiday dinner with her and my uncle. Ever since I came out here for college. She creeps me out...
- Got a little ego boost the other day when the wife of a VERY prominent music man came on to me in a not so subtle manner. And this isn't me bullsh*ttin because I have witnesses. What can I say? Ya boy's so handsome :)
Thursday, December 3, 2009
The Homies
My mans n em, r&b group One Chance, recently signed to T-Pain's Nappy Boy label and have a couple cameos in the video for Pain's new single. Congratulations to dem dudes for workin hard, stayin together, and makin sh*t happen!
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