Hilarious

I just thought about this video today...had to post it...warning: there is cursing

Death

This recent spree of celebrity deaths (MJ, Farrah Fawcett, Billy Mays, Steve McNair) has really got me thinking about how fragile life is. I think about what I have done with my life to this point and how many, if any, lives I have touched with my time here. I wonder what people would say about me if I were to not wake up one day (knock on wood). I cannot without a doubt say that most people would have great things to say and that troubles me. I have always felt there is something really great I am supposed to do on this Earth before I go, but I pray I figure that out before it is too late. I pray that everyone I call a friend would call me the same, and that I become better at truly showing gratitude to those who saw the potential for greatness within me and helped me without asking for reciprocation. I pray one day that potential that those people have recognized becomes realized. I pray to one day become a blessing to this world and not someone who merely "exists". Amen.

Current Music Playlist

Just a few that I'm really feelin right now

Maino ft. T-Pain - All The Above
Mary Mary - God In Me
Jeremih - Break Up to Make Up
Jeremih - Imma Star
Fabolous ft. Jeremih - It's My Time
The Dream - Fancy
Michael Jackson - EVERYTHING

Family

I'm currently in Ohio seeing my family (most of us are in Ohio). Everytime I come back, I get an overwhelming sense of self-confidence and reassurance. As far as self-confidence, I don't think outwardly I have any problems with it, but I know that sometimes my self-confidence comes across as arrogance and that is an internal issue of self-confidence. Internally, self-confidence isn't spoken, it's felt. I know we could always use reassurance, especially when we are at somewhat of a crossroads in our lives, which I feel like I'm in right now. Seeing family reminds me that no matter what, whichever path I choose, however I may feel about myself, there are those that love me absolutely unconditionally. It is my goal for this year to strengthen my communication with them while I'm away so I can tap into those feelings when I'm not around. When I see them, I see me. I see six of us sleeping feet to head in a twin bed. Baths in the kitchen sink. I see times where all we had was our love for each other and us being together to make it through. I see how my cousins' faces light up when they see me, the one in Atlanta "doing big things." I feel my need to make it happen not only for me, but for them. I see my little brothers, who are so excited to have an older brother and want to follow me everywhere I go and never want me to leave. I see a lot of things. But the most important thing I see is the love we all have for each other and how I know that love is NEVER going anywhere.

"What greater thing is there for human souls than to feel that they are joined for life - to be with each other in silent unspeakable memories." ~George Eliot

Introduction

I've decided to make this my only real outlet on the internet for whatever I feel like I want to blog about at the time...I've shut down myspace, facebook, twitter, linkedin, etc...I think it's time for me to spend some serious time working on self (and bringing whomever reads these along with me) and my social networking persona was getting a little shall we say "out of hand". Social networking sites allow people to be whomever they want to be and to create their own virtual world that can, if abused, be confused for reality. Now to let me start off (again) on the right note, a little about me:

Born in Ohio, spent a little time in Indiana, then spent most of my formative years in sunny Southern California. So if you ask, I'm from Cali. Currently living in Atlanta. College graduate that has gone on to become one of the many people in Atlanta who say "I'm in the music industry" when asked the question, "What do you do?" This also, as many in Atlanta would logically presume, means my financial situation isn't in the best shape, thus creating a daily psychological war between the logical self which asks, "What if it doesn't pan out?", and my "dreamer self" which is asks, "What if it does?" (My plan B is law school and I'm giving myself until Fall 2010 for this music thing to work or it's back to the classroom.)

I'd like to think I'm somewhat good looking, a lil' bit charming, and might I even say I have a sense of humor when I want have one. I have the ability to be extremely likeable (again, when I want to be). In general temperament, I will admit that I can sometimes be two VERY different people (which I will also admit is usually due to me not being very sensitive to my own emotions). As far as faults, I have a tendency to not let the people that I care about know just how much I care about them, something I am working on. Also, my biggest fault is I have been known to lie to people I care about. There I said it. I have been less than truthful to everyone that I have found truly important in my life and absolutely brutally honest to those that I don't. And on top of that, I'm not a very good liar, so I always get put on blast sooner or later. I can't really explain why I do it, although much of it is to avoid accountability, but my mom says I have inherited it from pops and it's something he took with him to his grave. I am extremely fearful of meeting the same fate. I'm trying to take it one day at a time, but honestly, it's rough...

Well that's me. Now you know more about me than a lot of people I know. I don't like to talk about myself that much. Introspection can be painful sometimes. Consider yourself properly introduced :)

Twitter Twits

I've been on twitter for about a month now (ericistheone is the handle by the way), and I've noticed a very disturbing trend. I've blogged in earlier entries about guys trying to pimp over the internet and it seems twitter is the new place to try your one-liners in 140 characters or less. With twits like "@_____ I like your background pic? What are you doing?" aren't getting you no punani playa. Time and time again, I'll notice my friends timeline full of wannabe magic don juans masturbating to the thought of an attractive woman responding to their twits. One particular internet romeo got angry when a girl said she's not on twitter to find a man. He went on to ask her where he could meet her, setting off her ted bundy radar, and then resorting to insulting her for not giving him a chance. What really made me laugh though was, when he got finished with her, he went on to begin the very same conversation with another girl. He even started it the EXACT SAME WAY. Needless to say, one can assume that he spent his evening very much alone.

Now I can't speak from a woman's perspective on how flattering or not it is for some random guy to ask you what you are doing at 3am, but as a man, I would advise my fellow men to just relax. Just think, if you want to send her a random twit, you're probably one of 1,872 guys that want to do the same thing. No woman is gonna take you seriously if the first thing you say to her is behind a computer screen. I agree, there are beautiful women online, but I promise you, there's a lot more beautiful women at your local Wal-Mart.

Gay26

People have been asking me what I think about this season of Making the Band and I only have one thing to say; Day26 officially came out of the closet this season. I haven't seen this much open man-love on MTV since Pedro was on The Real World. What's worse, I thought Will was the last guy in the group who could walk into a men's locker room at the local Y and not get awkard stares until he cried too. I'm not mad at Diddy, because he's getting more and more viewers each week with every episode spawning a viral video on youtube. I don't care how many records this group sells its first week, this season has irreparably damaged the reputation of this group. No amount of tattoos can bring back the street cred of this group (if they had any in the first place).

My jury's still out on this reality show to market the album strategy. Brutha ethered themselves last year with their obviously gay member and the lead singer being a 36 yr old alcoholic. Gay26 just threw any possible staying power they might have had out of the window with Rob's audible sobbing on national television.

Wonder why they are now Gay26?







Notice Brian's hand.....my thoughts exactly...